Just--how amazing is this 'Mrs Strong' pinafore that Annika made for me?!
Last week Annika and I had plans to spend the day crafting together, but I had to pull out last minute because I had a huge anxiety attack. I couldn't even talk- I had to get my boyfriend Oskar to call Annika for me. Hum dum dee dum. Dealing with anxiety and depression makes it so hard to do the things that you love sometimes. It is so hard to get out of your own head. It's pretty much the worst.
But I am absolutely blessed to have the most amazing people around me all the time. Including Annika- who turned up later that evening with this:
She spent the entire day making it- how amazing is it?! She told me that I could put it on any time I am having a hard time. I pretty much just collapsed on the floor and cried like a stupid big (happy) baby. It flipped my day right over, and that night we both wore our matching Mr Men outfits to the Finders Keepers craft markets in Sydney, where we had an amazing time looking at all the wonderful handicrafts, jewellery and clothing. We're considering (not really, maybe) dropping out of uni and becoming full-time crafter cutesters. We got drunk off one cider each (which we drank with a straw) and bought some lovely and ridiculous things.
(Hand-made mushroom hair clip and cloud brooch by Annika Victoria)
Wearing this pinafore does make me feel strong. I feel the strongest and most confident when I am doing something utterly ridiculous and not taking myself seriously. It makes me feel creative, and open to possibility. Sometimes I wake up and feel like I can absolutely take the day by storm. I walk down the street smiling at strangers, making friends with children and planning adventures. And things seem to fall into place. Sometimes I wake up and I'm terrified and I don't really know why, and then that fear is so exhausting that I can't get out of bed. And that makes me feel worse. It's like imaginary super-glue that you know is imaginary, but that doesn't make it any less sticky.
(Thrifted vintage rainbow converse!)
(Hand-made apple-slicer earring from Finders Keepers craft markets)
But we have a tendency to treat bad thoughts like velcro and good thoughts like teflon. What I mean by this is that we go over and over all the 'bad' things we've done, beating ourselves up about it. And then when something good happens, we feel good. But then we forget. We don't think about it as often. It feels narcissistic, or wrong. But why?
I am endeavouring to take a little time out of my day each day to remind myself of something cool I have achieved. I think it is something we should all do. It's not the sappy 'love everything about yourself' affirmation technique (which is proven to only work on people who already have high self-esteem), it's simply taking a little time to be honest with yourself. Because you have done something that's made you feel good. You've probably just forgotten about it.
What makes you guys feel strong? Another thing that has been incredibly uplifting for me is being introduced to the blogging world, and the wonderful comments and feedback I get from you guys. So please leave a message- tell me what makes you feel really good about yourself.
Also, I cannot stress enough how important it is to have a healthy amount of chocolate in your life. I am currently desperately scraping the last remnants from a nutella jar. My friend Elsher has been known to dip banana into her nutella, and I wholeheartedly recommend that you all do this immediately. And then sprinkle it with coconut. And then put on some electro-swing, really loudly. And dance.
Here is some afore-mentioned electro-swing. Put on something ridiculous and have a bit of dance to this. I (double) dare you.
Hope you are all having a great week!
Love, Katie xoxo