Wednesday, 11 June 2014

Mrs Strong takes on Nutella, Anxiety and Getting Out of Bed


Hallooooo!

Just--how amazing is this 'Mrs Strong' pinafore that Annika made for me?!


 Last week Annika and I had plans to spend the day crafting together, but I had to pull out last minute because I had a huge anxiety attack. I couldn't even talk- I had to get my boyfriend Oskar to call Annika for me. Hum dum dee dum. Dealing with anxiety and depression makes it so hard to do the things that you love sometimes. It is so hard to get out of your own head. It's pretty much the worst.

But I am absolutely blessed to have the most amazing people around me all the time. Including Annika- who turned up later that evening with this:


She spent the entire day making it- how amazing is it?! She told me that I could put it on any time I am having a hard time. I pretty much just collapsed on the floor and cried like a stupid big (happy) baby. It flipped my day right over, and that night we both wore our matching Mr Men outfits to the Finders Keepers craft markets in Sydney, where we had an amazing time looking at all the wonderful handicrafts, jewellery and clothing. We're considering (not really, maybe) dropping out of uni and becoming full-time crafter cutesters. We got drunk off one cider each (which we drank with a straw) and bought some lovely and ridiculous things.

Day= saved.


(Hand-made mushroom hair clip and cloud brooch by Annika Victoria)

Wearing this pinafore does make me feel strong. I feel the strongest and most confident when I am doing something utterly ridiculous and not taking myself seriously. It makes me feel creative, and open to possibility. Sometimes I wake up and feel like I can absolutely take the day by storm. I walk down the street smiling at strangers, making friends with children and planning adventures. And things seem to fall into place. Sometimes I wake up and I'm terrified and I don't really know why, and then that fear is so exhausting that I can't get out of bed. And that makes me feel worse. It's like imaginary super-glue that you know is imaginary, but that doesn't make it any less sticky.

(Thrifted vintage rainbow converse!)

(Hand-made apple-slicer earring from Finders Keepers craft markets)


But we have a tendency to treat bad thoughts like velcro and good thoughts like teflon. What I mean by this is that we go over and over all the 'bad' things we've done, beating ourselves up about it. And then when something good happens, we feel good. But then we forget. We don't think about it as often. It feels narcissistic, or wrong. But why? 



I am endeavouring to take a little time out of my day each day to remind myself of something cool I have achieved. I think it is something we should all do. It's not the sappy 'love everything about yourself' affirmation technique (which is proven to only work on people who already have high self-esteem), it's simply taking a little time to be honest with yourself. Because you have done something that's made you feel good. You've probably just forgotten about it.



What makes you guys feel strong? Another thing that has been incredibly uplifting for me is being introduced to the blogging world, and the wonderful comments and feedback I get from you guys. So please leave a message- tell me what makes you feel really good about yourself.

Also, I cannot stress enough how important it is to have a healthy amount of chocolate in your life. I am currently desperately scraping the last remnants from a nutella jar. My friend Elsher has been known to dip banana into her nutella, and I wholeheartedly recommend that you all do this immediately. And then sprinkle it with coconut. And then put on some electro-swing, really loudly. And dance.


Here is some afore-mentioned electro-swing. Put on something ridiculous and have a bit of dance to this. I (double) dare you.

       

Hope you are all having a great week!

Love, Katie xoxo

18 comments:

  1. Oooohhhh ;_______; I love you, flat-dog!

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      love, love, lovely love!

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  2. so lovely! It looks great on you. :]

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  3. A post full of lovely and inspiring thoughts :)
    Sometimes I feel really bad about myself because I have to sacrifice soooo much time to university to get just average results. I mean, there are some people who are so competitive to redo an exam because a 10/20 wasn't good enough for them while I am relieved when I still get a 10/20 on an exam that went bad... But whenever I feel down I remind myself that I study the one thing I love most in the world. That really cheers me up :) And after all, there's so much more in life besides getting high grades!
    PS You rock that Mrs Strong pinafore! :D

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    1. Hi Irena! Thanks for your lovely comment :-) I absolutely understand and I think you have a great mindset. You should be studying because you love it- no other reason! I have to remind myself the same thing with university. As long as you enjoy what you are doing and are eager to continue to learn you can't go wrong! I hope you are having a lovely week, enjoy your study! Xx

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  4. That's such an awesome pinafore! You're really lucky to have a friend like Annika <3

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  5. Hey Katie, great post! I think it's really important to open up a dialogue about mental health in this kind of way. It's also really brave. Sharing stories about such things is a vital way for us to feel like we're all in this together. We all experience challenges with our mental health at some time in our lives. If we understand that it can happen and does happen to people like us then we'll be better equipped to help each other out. Just like lovely Annika did with your pinafore. You are strong. Thanks again for sharing.
    Also if you enjoy electro swing maybe you'll like this new album from Beat Fatigue. It's a genre along the lines of Glitch Blues Funk. Check it ouuut and have a wiggle! https://soundcloud.com/beat-fatigue/sets/malfunktionality-part-one

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    1. Hi Tanya! Thank you so much for your wonderful comment, it made my night. It's so comforting to know that people understand, and I agree that there is urgent need for there to be an honest, open and positive dialogue about these issues. So thank you! Having a lovely person on the internet tell me that I am brave has to be one of the most excellent things that has happened this week- I am so glad I have decided to blog and be able to connect with lovely people like you! Xxx
      Also I listened to that funky musickk- yeah baby. My toes are having a badass wiggle right now. X

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    2. You're a very welcome/appreciated addition to the internet community! Xxx

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  6. Great blog post. Good on you for being so open about your anxiety. I wish I had the guts you do to open up about that kinda stuff. I tend to keep it bottled up unfortunately. Wholeheartedly agree with your chocolate theory. Chocolate is the business and there's very little it can't improve.
    When I'm down I like to remind myself that it won't last forever and once I'm out the other side of it I'm sure to be doing or seeing something awesome. I plan an adventure to look forward to and that often helps cheer me up :)

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  7. Firstly, you, your outfit, and your friendship with Annika are all super cute and inspiring.
    Secondly, nutella... that's all. i just wanted to express my own love of nutella in agreement with you.
    Thirdly, seeing this post made me feel all fuzzy inside. I've been suffering from some pretty crippling anxiety for the past couple of years, as have some of my friends, and seeing people (especially super cool people like you) talking about anxiety like it's not something shameful means a lot to me. I sometimes forget that other people struggle with their overbearing emotions and that it's not something wrong with me. Plus it's always nice hearing about the different little ways that people find to help. So yeah, I just wanted to say rock on, you're great and thank you for your wonderful blog xx

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  8. Hey.
    I got to your through Annika, and I sympathise completely with your situation...a few years back I wasn't in too great a place. I also like how you're talking about it in such simple terms, I mean you type 'anxiety' or 'depression' into google and you get so much b****cks that's in terms that only therapists and people who have been through it would understand, so I love the way you talk about it, it makes it so much easier for people who haven't been through it to sympathise.

    I love the pinafore too, I also love the fact that you have a friend that makes you things! Your friendship seems so cute :')

    I'm just going to follow your blog now!

    You're awesome, sister.

    http://tonisewsclothes.blogspot.co.uk/

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  9. I love this post. I also struggle with anxiety and can relate to all of this so well. I admire and appreciate those like yourself who are willing to share these details and open up the conversation about mental health. I don't know what makes me feel strong, honestly, but you've inspired me to figure out what that is <3
    You truly have some amazing people in your life. You look absolutely adorable in that pinafore and I'm glad that your night was turned around with what sounds like an awesome night.

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  10. Thank you so much for your honest presentation of your experience with anxiety and depression! I also suffer from anxiety and it's surprising how invisible it can be (most people won't go socialize or broadcasting it when they're having a panic attack). Because so many people don't see it first-hand, it's often misunderstood and stigmatized, which can only be combatted through open, honest conversations about what it's actually like to experience it. So thank you :) I love that you mention how anxiety can be absolutely crippling at one point, and ease up to the point of being able to socialize by the end of the day--something I think most people don't get about it.

    Your friendship with Annika is so sweet and reminds me so much of my bestie and I! She also has anxiety and we're always making each other things in support of each other's struggles. Having strong, close relationships with people who understand and respect what you're going through, know how to help, and who can remind you who you really are in the midst of anxiety and depression are SO important in managing mental illness. I'm so happy to see you've made that for yourself!

    Relatedly, something that makes me feel strong and proud is that I've been able to cultivate and support those same relationships in my life. They're crucial to me being happy and healthy, and my friend often has to remind me that they aren't a result of luck or coincidence, they're a result of hard work, communication, and commitment. And I'm proud that I'm able to create that for myself. Sounds like you've done the same and should be equally proud--friends like Annika don't just show up, they have to be earned :)

    So thank you for your honesty and your awesome blog! I can't wait to keep reading!

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